Jobs: Mixed Feelings

My wife had a second interview yesterday, and this morning she got a phone call to tell her the job was unofficially hers (she needs to pass a drug test first). I wish I could say this was good news, but we both have mixed feelings. On the one hand we are happy to have a new source of income, that will certainly help our finances and help us pay the bills while I still look for work. On the other hand neither of us wanted my wife to have to pick up a second job, least of all me. I come from an old fashioned view that the woman should not have to work outside the home. That does not mean I want her to stay home; I want to give her the option, indicating her income is not needed to sustain our lifestyle, giving her freedom to pursue hobbies that may not produce income. Sadly I cannot do that for her now. We need her to work because I cannot yet land a job.

Those dinners I talked about a while ago, I will have to start making them. She will get home at about the same time we will want to start eating, and since she will be working harder than I, the roles are switching. I will say it is nice to have the freedom to work on my hobbies (once I've exhausted all job possibilities for the day), but I'd much rather be earning a steady (and substantial) income. Hopefully it will be my turn to get a call for a second interview, then hopefully a job offer. If it delays in coming my wife will have gone through training and feel obligated to work for them, and I think she'd prefer to stay home rather than work.

At times like these, I feel I have failed as a husband. At times like these I admire my wife even more.